Why do we short change ourselves and others so much?
Casting the imperfections of lives in a blinding spotlight. What right do we have to do that?
And yet I did. I grew up with the misconception that all the things I did and was known for gave me the authority to undermine and criticize others…until that fall from grace!
I dared to utter the words “I would never….”, “You’ll never find me….” and guess what happened?
The very things I knew within my heart of hearts that would never be a chapter out of my life story did occur.
Suddenly it was my life that was looked down upon. I became the example to many others around me…”don’t be like her!”
My appearance though ordinary to the human eye was stained with shame and guilt as my perfect image was tainted.
But save the tissues for another sobfest. This story doesn’t have an unhappy ending!
Because one day, I was accosted by a love I can’t even liken to anything else. One whose presence wrapped around me like a cozy blanket on an extremely cold weather warning in effect day (like what we’re having in Toronto presently) had written a message and left it available just for me to see.
“Come now, and let us reason together, ” says the LORD, Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be white as snow; Though they are red like crimson, they shall be as wool. (Isaiah 1:18)
On that day on I transformed into a new and improved model of me. I realized that despite all the “good” I’ve ever done, I’ll never be perfect. It’s unrealistic and unattainable!
All I can be is imperfectly perfect – striving each day to be better than the last, knowing that because my God loves me without prejudice or any fine print conditions I can be confident to come to Him with all my faults.
Ask my family, they know my MANY faults well and love me nonetheless, which is why I’ve asked individuals when they tell me that they can forgive their child but not their spouse why. It’s funny how we can often overlook the faults of those directly attached to us but see our significant others as separate.
The same way we willingly look past the faults of those nearest to our hearts is how we ought to be looking at them and others as well.
Is this something I practice all the time and for everyone…ummmm…no!
There are definitely people who “rub” me the wrong way and challenge me to no end, but I take one day at a time. I fail…..FREQUENTLY, other times I’m pleasantly optimistic 🙂
Because of all this, I’m drawn especially to those who are counted as “renegades”, “unworthy”, and outside of the invisible lines we create to give them my time…my love. How different am I to anyone else? I breathe the same air, live in the same world, experience the same basic emotions.
And for me, the blessing that comes from stepping away from the light of being included in or with those of a particular social status and joining with those left in the shadows is both humbling and enlightening as I see that really nothing separates us as we are all perfectly imperfect and in need of a perfect love that comes from one source – God!