Have you ever thought to yourself that you needed to be in a particular state, a particular size, at a particular time, with a particular person, with a particular look and a particular age to obtain something you truly desire?
If you’re like me, the answer to the above was yes.
There have been a number of instances where I didn’t believe that being in my exact spot right here and now was good enough and many years ago after moving from one bad relationship experience to another I used that notion to give up on the idea of ever being married.
When my husband approached me at a gas station nine years ago, I was broken, guarded and resentful, yet during our first phone conversation and every other that followed, he would call me his future wife. To say the least, he agitated me because he knew nothing about me and gas stations are not where you meet your future spouse.
Fast forward about six months later, he proposed and as he waited for my response, I remember hearing a voice so clearly saying, “You can, but it’s not going to be easy”. I cannot even begin to tell you the amount of drama that ensued over the years that followed. From surreal happiness to angry tears to uncontrollable laughter to tension so thick I couldn’t see through the circumstances in front of me, we’ve had them all and then some.
We’re not still standing together today because of perfect circumstances. We’re standing in spite of everything that could have torn us apart. Year after year layers of each of our brokenness is revealed, rehabilitated and healed and the more we’ve allowed love to flow and permeate through us is the more fulfilled we’ve felt in realizing that God can and does work with us right where we are if we allow Him.
Our relationship is far from perfect, however, after eight years of marriage I’ve found a genuine excitement in seeing how far we’ve come, the changes of course and growth we’ve encountered along the way, all from being as we already are.
Today, I pray you see the beauty of your current circumstance and allow God to direct you knowing that from the exact place you are, He “is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.” (Ephesians 3:20-21 NKJV)